DAY 5

day 5 without you by my side, cloudy...

it is the 1st day of claz today...

goin to claz reminds me of the time u went to claz with me, the time u spent waiting for me in d library, the study weeks v spent studyin together...

whole night i did not sleep, cuz i was worried about you...

wut u said to me i had them in my heart, mayb i din showed to you...

i still remember u said u are sked to be alone in ur room in kampar.

u cant sleep well, u had to kept the lights on n sleep...

u wanted me to be there to hug u, let u fall asleep in my arms...

u had wished that i was there for u bt v knew, v r separated 3 hours away...

remember those times v travelled back n forth kl n kampar?

u seemed to enjoyed those times spent with me...

u said u wanted me to be with u always...

bt nw, u said to leave n get on with life...

bt do u noe, by doin so, no1 is saved... both will be suffering...

to rili avoid suffering is to work together through thick n thin overcomin all obstacles...

think of those times v had, which i'm sure u cant forget...

stay on, work thgs out together, n mayb u will noticed a better solution this time around...

i mayb stupid bt 1 thg for sure, i do care for u n my love for u will never die...

i no longer can opened up my heart cuz u had already locked it with urself in it...

DAY 4

day 4 without you by my side, cloudy

its a cold, cold day... jz reminds me of sumthg

when u r cold, i would hug u n kiss u n vice versa.

neway, today lunch time saw 1 couple arguing, d gal was saying to the guy he's stupid...

well reminds me of the fights v had, yea i am stupid, foolish s well to hurt u so much.

rili, din notice hw stupid i had been towards u...

i should love and cherish u nt hurt u...

had a dream again n its about u... nt by my side...

in a hospital, wif all the tubes n machines around me, waiting for u to appear n say those words that u had hidden in u, bt i woke up n ur image is still in my heart...

thinkin back, u were d cute and innocent little gal, who cared for me even though v r strangers at first... n proceeding until v r a couple n d 1 i loved.

i hope u still remember the rings i told u about, u are the oni 1 i gv it to.

mayb u din notice bt i do keep in mind wut u had said b4.

u were kinda traumatised by a pursuer bt u said u were happy to hv opened ur heart to me.

bt nw its no longer opened...

u said u were sked b4 bt when u r wif me, u felt safe...

remember the time in our "old place" where the fatty tried to harass u n i stood up for u.

i could c hw grateful n touched u were...

i jz hope to relive those moments with you.

ignore me if u want, bt i do hope u can be happy

n 1 thing for sure, my love for u will never die till d day i finally leave this world.

DAY 3

day 3 without u by my side, sunny day + expected rain

finally can sleep bt its nt as i planned to.

slept around 2 plus, then woke up at 8 sumthg in d morning.

reason i woke up was cuz of a dream.

it was a touchin dream,which was so real...

u had forgiven me, v were sharin songs...

i remember v did dat b4...

mayb u r indeed happy separating from me.

bt deep down, i had a hunch u r nt...

i still remember, u always will put up a brave look in front of others, includin me...

only to break down when u were alone...

knowin u to cry by urself rili make me feel useless.

hw could i let my precious cry when i am supposed to make her smile.

this teddy bear v saw in pavillion's SnJ.

i remember u said u like teddy bears.

at that time u said u were lucky cuz u already own such a big teddy bear.

u can bring him out, hug him n love him. to u, i'm ur teddy bear, ur da chu...

i've always reminiscence the 1st day v r together,

especially after i nearly lost my life in an accident...

from then on, every study break, n every once a while u will come to kl to find me...

v would spend time 2gether studyin, watchin drama, shopping n eat a lot of diff food.

steamboat was ur vv 1st choice, s v went to lot10's shop...

bii, i rili love u with all my heart, my soul n my life.

u are my everythg n i am rili sorry to disappoint u so much.

u were the who said v had to work for our future, n u r d 1 dat wanted to b wif me forever.

no matter what, u r d oni person i love more than myself.

mayb u din notice my actions for it...

bt v do nd time to really und each other...

2 years is jz d beginning of everythg...

every1 hv their probs n u r d 1 that taught me hw to deal with it by sharing it wif u...

i do hope u to share wif me so dat v can work it out.

DAY 2

Day 2 without u by my side, unpredictable weather

rili sorry for wut happen previously.

its my bad for conveying other ppl's msg.

cant rili blame u for getting angry at me.

situation getting rili bad it seems.

in a way, d feeling u once said u still had will be put off by this.

i dun rili wana c it b this way.

i hope to ignite back the passion v had in this relationship.

it seems my effort to create posibillities b futile.

went back kl to resume my life, bt truth is i had lost my hope to continue.

u were the pillar of my strength, d source of my energy.

now i und y ppl say, u nvr treasure until u noe its gone.

walkin around in jusco wangsa maju brings back memories dat v created there.

the days v went grocery shopping where i cook for u when u r here.

the meals v had whenever u came to find me.

n even the time v spent choosing garments for u.

n oso d 1 time v were so enthusiastic to study that v stayed in starbucks 1 whole day.

i rili miss those moments that u will come over to setapak to spend ur study week wif me.

there was once afta ur exam, u straight came over here jz to encourage me to study.

i jz wish dat days nvr end n jz continue.

mayb its better for the time being v stay s frens bt 1 thg for sure, my love for u will nvr die.

i will still care for u like hw it was.

cuz i had made a vow, u r my everythg and i would gv u my life.

for u to gv up on me means to gv up my life s well.

hope u r happy like yesterday wif ur besties goin out, hangin out.

hope u wun thk so much like b4...

hope that our memories will nt fade and gv time for us to work thgs out.

DAY 1

day 1 without u by my side, sunny day

just so u noe, she insisted to let me go 12th january 2011.

sleepless night starts to haunt me again.

been thinkin a lot bout my mistakes.

indeed i had done wrong, hurt u so much dat u can forgive me.

i admit i am immature at times.

however, nobody's perfect n like wut u expect.

there are flaws in us and being in a relationship had thought me dat.

v need to accept who we are and build up wut we cherish.

2 years past n i can say, it was the happiest of my life.

i've change jz u din noticed. i've change cuz of u.

mayb u din notice wut i had done for u, bt i assure u it's all for u.

i dun wana make u hate me or wut cuz i noe deep down in ur heart, there is still love for us.

i noe i've made u annoyed b4 bt i jz hope u think about it properly, gv us time for this 2 years v build together, will b put to waste if u jz gv up lidat.

i hope v can start it off as frens like u wanted and slowly build back wut v had lost.

if u dun wana c me, i'm fine with it. i'll jz wait until u r ready.

i noe i am being stupid for holding on bt i jz hope u can work it out with me.

6 months, dats all i ask. bt if within this 6 months u encounter sum1 better or u no longer love me. i will not bother u anymore.

dats all i ever wanted, to be with u creating more memories better than b4.

gv me time as i will prove to u i'm worth ur effort n time.